September Results and Panda Bear Madness Minute
What’s happenin boys and girls? Its been awhile… My bad, I’ve been feeling sorta down recently so writing was like the last thing I wanted to do. Alas, I’m back to feeling somewhat like a real human being. I’ve been pretty impressed with my skill in leaving my emotional shit at the door when I have been playing poker. So that said lets look at my crappy September…
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I ran like total crap in the beginning of the month along with playing terribly. I managed to put in a decent volume though and net 7k + coaching so something like 8k for september. This is only the second month in my life i’ve played more than 50k hands. My 1/2 WR was over 3.5ptbb… which was solid. I also had a little running bad at 2/4 at the end there. Overall, I feel like things are really starting to come together, and I love the fact that the awful breakeven stretch is over. I realize now how high strung I was then. I actually hit my desk more than once, which is pretty damn out of character for me. I am going to be looking to take more shots at 2/4 this month when the games look good. Alright so there’s the poker results stuff outta the way from last month.
One more poker thing i’ll touch on is TableNinjaFT. I just got the program and I can’t say enough good things about it. I can’t understand how I did this before. The mouse over option is ridiculous. Its allowed me to add 3 tables onto the 12 I already play. So I should be 15-16 tabling from now on as long as I can keep my WR up. I’m also waiting for FTP to add a 30 inch monitor to their store. I don’t need another mammoth TV but I’m gonna default to it if that thing doesn’t show up soon.
Onto life stuff, like I said i’ve been feeling down recently. I am just in rut with never leaving my house. I feel like I’m going crazy. I’ve been trying to go on like a few dinner dates a week, but its still not really enough. I need to find someone to hang with during the day, that I can just shoot the shit with. It isn’t gonna happen because real people work and I don’t want some creepy bum in my house haha. Last week, I was so bored I just up and drove to charlotte for the week. It was a good time, but clearly this can’t become habit for me. On top of just being generally depressed from never leaving the house, I got the wonderful news my ex has already got a new bf, and it was exactly who I figured it was and exactly who i thought was responsible for it. Knowing didn’t make it any easier though. It’s a shitty feeling confirming you got cheated on (which is a first for me), and then left because some dude is better than you (which is a second for me). It doesn’t help the likely reasoning was “he’s in vegas, he’s probably doing girls, I gotta have some fun”. Makes me sorta regret the Vegas thing and especially the being a loyal bf thing. Its super weak sauce, but I’ve coped with similar feelings before so I’ll be fine… just hopefully its sooner rather than later. Writing that down did make feel better. WOOOO!
On a lighter note, I got a book for recreational reading. This is big news for me as I’ve never done this before. I love the Dan Brown books however, so one about the city I live in is hella-exciting. Its called “the lost symbol”. I think my plan at the moment is read the book, then go explore the book’s momuments around dc on a date or something.
Panda Bear Madness Minute!!!!
Hang out with phil IMO
reading that depressed me. you should have talked about the charlotte trip more, and snuck in there the dirtiness you promised you would not mention so no cat fights erupted in DC. that and the fact that the entire pine house heard the dirtiness going down like charlie brown….3 times. im going to get back to work. thanks for giving me something to read between gmail checks. and please dont do anymore friends of people you know, it might get awkward and start unpleasant drunk texting if they find out.
next time say bye. later
Good post and decent results man, hopefully I too can break out of that breakeven slump. I just finished The Lost Symbol … if you like Dan Brown books then you’ll like this one too. Interesting depth to the Masonic background and history.
Anyways don’t be a stranger, and I think if you are in a rut you should find some poker guys to live with for a few months and have fun again, like Vegas 2.0 but maybe just not in Vegas.
BTW women are crazy, get used to it.
Solid month man! Enjoy the freedom you have without a gf. Time to bang out as many as you can before you get tied down again.
Jesus man, that was the most brutal post in a long time. It’s horrible the impact a girl can have on your life. I’m one of those people who wades through this poker garbage and reads your blog religiously because I am interested in you and how you’re doing. I am sorry. Life just gets more complex and miserable; I want to go back to high school.
Girls can go out, get nailed, be whores. It’s their right. Just don’t find yourself married to one. You’re fortunate man. You could have stuck fast to a girl who isn’t worth a damn bouquet of flowers. Now you’ll end up with a decent girl–one who wouldn’t think that way. In the mean time do what makes you happy. That might mean sleeping with every good-looking schoolteacher in Arlington County, and you’ve got every right to do exactly that. Eventually though, you’ll come around.
Good luck with everything, including poker.
Jeez talk about depressing blog post. It’s good to see that you’re actually putting in some volume. Not too shabby results either, congrats! Glad to see you liked Table Ninja too b/c I’m looking forward to using that when I get home. Anyway, if you want to go on a trip somewhere or something just let me know…and if not we can “hang” during the day by playing the new COD when it comes out lol.